What Is my Plan for the New Year ???

Where to start on this New Year ???

 

Wow, I truly can't believe it's been 10 months since I wrote on my blog!  I've thought about it, almost every weekend when I had some time to really think.  I never seemed to sit down and do it though.  That is sad, because I use writing as a therapy for my soul.  Life has been busy this past year. One of  the photos are of good friends at my annual girls Christmas party that I have had for the last 15 years.  We did a pajama party!  Some of the my friends were sick so they couldn't make it.  I was happy my friend Cathy made it this year.  We were friends so long ago.  It's good to renew friendships.  I have somewhat been on a soul searching journey.  As you age you tend to think a lot more.  I have some quiet times usually the weekend, when I can take my time drinking my coffee and enjoy it.  Not having to rush out the door right away.  My faith I believe has become stronger.  My faith in God that is, not people.  Well maybe some.  This past year has been trying.  It has been stressful for many due to the corrupt individuals in our government.  The costs of living is much higher, and somedays I struggle trying to pay everything.  A lot of people do.  I will be so glad when Trump is back in office, and hopefully things change for the better! I know he is just a man, not God, however I do feel he is finally being lead more by God.  He was shot in July, which most do believe was orchestrated by the corrupt FBI.  You go through an experience like that and I do believe you look at life differently.  I'm staying in prayer for our country, for the president and his new cabinet to make the necessary changes to get on the right path.  

I won't go into all the politics.  I actually have always hated getting involved.  My eyes have been open when Trump became President in 2016.  Our country was so much better.  I do believe the election was stolen in 2020, and that covid was a way to control us, to see how far they could get to have the New World order.  Yes, I have a mind and I do think about everything.  

What is my plan for 2025?  I'm trying to focus on getting more clients for my cleaning business.  I've lost a few this past year.  It's been a bit of a struggle trying to get the right ones.  I'm trusting God to bring the right people into my life. 

 I have really not been dating.  I did meet someone months ago.  We had a few dates, texted and talked daily for months.  I knew he wasn't for me.  On paper a lot of things in common, however in person, NO.  He was older in his 70's, divorced, had grown kids, politically we were on the same page.  He was a Christian, and retired for quite a while.  I think he had a good income with a pension as he had worked for the federal government, and social security.  He had told me on our first date, he would have me retired in no time, and move me up north to my hometown.  Wow, I thought, he wants to take care of me!  Appealing, yes.  I was not attracted to him, though, at all.  He was a nice man, but just not my type.  I tried to convince myself maybe I should give him a chance.  So more dates, and calls, etc.  Nope, wasn't for me.  There were no sparks of any kind.  I just felt a friendship and that was it.  He wanted way more.  I couldn't do it.  I stopped hearing from him after Thanksgiving.  He had told me prior that he wanted to come over for weekends, he would stay on the couch.  He wanted to come over during the week, and do dinner together.  I cringed while he said these words.  I knew I couldn't do this any more.  So when he didn't contact me anymore I felt relieved.  

I really haven't had much contact with any men, except my friend Dan.  My ex boyfriend Scott, and a guy I used to work with, Bill.  I will get a random text every now and then from the Italian man I dated prior to meeting Rich, and being engaged.  They all want to see me.  Do I even have the energy for any of them? 

I have a little bit of a wall up I think.  As I've said before do I even want to waste any more of my time?  I really am not sure, at this point.  Dan moved back to Michigan.  He immediately is wanting me to come and stay the weekend.  NO, maybe a dinner date and go from there.  Scott would like me to totally be with him again.  That's not going to work, either, I feel.  Bill, warned me, that he hasn't had a woman in a long time, so I might be kissed, and hugged a lot, and more.... I'm not ready for the more.  I do not want to jump into bed to have sex with anyone.  Oh and the Italian, who did make me weak in the knees when he kissed me when we dated a few months, is tempting.  But he doesn't want any kind of relationship, just sex.  I feel safer just staying in my own bubble.  Spending time with my family, and friends.  The picture of 3 of my kids, and 2 of my grandkids was a good time.  That was early fall.  Dani's daughter wasn't with us though.  She was with her dad.  Of course I miss my oldest son, and his family.  Hopefully we will be together next September, when Shawn and Susan finally get married after 20 years.  Its been I think 18 years since all my kids have been together with me.  I am really looking forward to it. 

I've learned to become my own friend.  I still am not the me I'd really like to be.  I want to lose more weight.  I can't give up sugar though.  I need my chocolate now and then!  It's a comfort thing.  I'm active nearly everyday with cleaning houses. Some days I am too tired to do any other work out.  But I need to try and get back into it.  I miss my dog.  We used to walk everyday, sometimes twice.  I think I gained 6 pounds since she passed.  Part of me wants another dog.  I think I am still heartbroken over losing Koda.  She was the best friend anyone could ask for.  I think I want a dog more than a man!  They are faithful.  Dogs not men!  If I do have a man in my life, I want the best friend, that I can totally be myself with.  Share good and bad.  Not be judged in any way.  So difficult to find that now a days.  I'm so over the online dating thing, yet again.  So many liars.  Again, I am asking God to bring the right person in my life.  I've made some bad decisions when it comes to men.  I am learning, even at this age that I need to rely on him more, and not myself.  I will only date Christian men.  Not the ones that have to go to church every Sunday, and quote the bible constantly.  The one who has a true relationship with Jesus Christ, who knows what the bible says, and does read it, but understands that he needs God in his life too.  For him to pray always and make better decisions regarding life.  

My plan for this year is to stay healthy.... Oh, the eye Dr says I am getting cataracts... I have glasses for now.  But eventually he said will need surgery.  I don't need them all the time, just when I really want to see something.... lol.... My blood pressure is normal, controlled by medication daily.  I am trying to seek the right foods, etc to eat to not rely on meds.  Not sure it will happen though.  I've got arthritis in my knee, and my shoulder.  That's from injuries when I was young.  Aging, it all comes back to haunt you.... ugh... Sucks!  But I am blessed, some my age are much worse. 

Ok, I wasn't going to say anything but I am a little excited.  I'm texting with a man the last couple of weeks, from Facebook dating.  I think we are going to do a phone conversation later today.  He's a few years younger, I think 61.  He's divorced twice, has grown kids and grandkids.  Has a good job, and lives like an hour away.  We have been learning about each other through text.  He seems to be on the same page as me.  Christian, conservative, loves animals, we have so much in common.  Maybe that's why I can't get all the words on this blog today.  My mind is a bit anxious to know if I can step out of my comfort zone I've had for awhile.  Maybe, we will see.  I need to keep my priorities in order.  I need to focus on getting more work to pay my bills, my health, getting some things done at my house.  Ask God, to guide me in the right direction.  I need to listen more.  I still want time with my friends and family.  I would like more adventures with the girls.  I have a new client tomorrow, a big historic home in town.  It's going to be a lot of work, so I am going to stay prayed up to do it.  I will clean for them every other Monday for around 6 hours.  I just hope my knee will hold out to do so!  I do have some other people who I am waiting to hear back from.  Again, praying.  

I hope your New Year is off to a good start!  You make time for yourself.  You pray about any decisions you need to make.  I still want to write a book.  So many when they hear anything of my life's experiences have said that.  I've always wanted to be a writer, since I was a teen.  One more thing I'll ask God about.  

Take care of yourself!  Buy the shoes, eat the cake, enjoy what life has to offer you!  Tell those you love, how you feel. Smile at a stranger, just because.  You never know what other people are going through.  

When it comes to relationships, Don't settle for less than you deserve!  Pray and ask God for the right person.  

Pray for our President Trump and his cabinet to make the decisions necessary to bring our country back.  

Thanks for reading!  Love to you all...... Happy New Year !   Debi