Listen to your Gut!

Well I feel like a fool today..... the man who told me so much the last 2 weeks about us being together, has bailed.... Yes, I felt this before it happened.  I have always listened to my gut... as my grandma would tell me many times over.  It usually isn't wrong.  The reason, he says distance, for one thing.... well what the hell are you doing on this dating site, and contacting me after you knew where I was.... and things seemed so good between us.... I'm over guys and their crap.  I think the other thing...or one of them was I have cats... he loved my dog... oh well this is life.  

I have taken myself off the sites I was on.  I was I hate to say it, on like 6 sites, just because.  I almost walked  completely away from a guy that I know likes me, but it's complicated.  I really need to evaluate again what I WANT... I do want a relationship, I am tired of being alone.  I am also getting too old to play this game.  How do I believe ANYTHING these men say?  I almost introduced this guy to my daughter.... but she wasn't feeling well.   I am so tired of going to events alone.  I am starting to think I am never going to meet the right man.  

I have to focus back on myself, yet again.... enjoy my life.  I think I do need a vacation soon.  I will make sure Koda is completely ok, before I go anywhere.  I love this dog, and I now have my daughter's Yorkie as well.... yes, it's like a zoo somedays.  I know the right guy will be fine with that.  The last one told me he was, and I think he really wasn't.  

I should of never allowed him to stay in my home.... no matter what.  Have I gotten that blind, that I allowed this behavior???  I am so angry at myself right now.  I am going to spend the rest of today smiling, and know that I am human, and make mistakes.  This happened for a reason.... he even said so.... but I will figure that out later... 

Listen to your gut.... always!   Funny he said I was very intuitive....  Yes, I sure am... but obviously I was not listening as well as I should... I will be more on guard next time....I am tired of men being so attracted to me, but none really seeing my heart......